u choose.do it.!

assalamualaikum... =)

malam smlm aq sedar satu perkara... aq dah buat keputusan untuk keluar matrik jadi aq kene kuat untuk tempuhi jalan hidup aq kat form 6... bukan org laen yg nak berjaya.. bukan org laen yg nak ade kerja best2... ape yg aq usaha hari ini hasilnya akan dpt pd masa akan datang... smlm aq cakap ngn one of my bff yg ade kt mtrik tu... im just wanna cry... nk let it out... rase sgt payah nak harungi semua ni... aq buat pilihan tp aq menyesal... menyesal dah takde gune kan... mase lalu xkan pernah dpt diulang semula... aq sememangnye hilang semangat nak teruskan belajar kt skola.. rase cm terOkkk sgt3.... bukan rase dah pun, mmg terok... what happen to me? people keep asking the same question but i don't know how to explain... its all about me... myself...!! tgk kwn2 dpt 4.00 and 3.00 above kt matrik seriously wt aq lg down... aq ase cm aq yg plg worse... smone pnah ckp aq ni tade hala tuju... tade mase dpn... keep asking me awk nak jd ape kalo cmni? tp tak pernah nk bg semangat kt aq.. kate2 dy wtkan aq ase mmg aq tak gune... mmg aq xde hala tuju.. so what?? hurmmm.......... dgr lagu the climb wtkan aq menangis... smone gave me that song... lirik2 tu.... =( kawankawan... doakan sy yer... sy nak jd cm korang... ade yg bakal aircraft engineer... ade yg bakal jd doctor... accountant... n so on... sy taknak jd mcm ni.... sy taknak.!!

: MUKA BUKU :

ASSALAMUALAIKUM... 
tetibe ase rajen sgt2 pulak nak update blog hari ni... sbb tak tahu esok masih dpt teruskan hidup ke tak di bumi Allah swt yg sgt luas nih... =)

MOHAMAD FIRDAUS BIN MOHAMAD FUAAT... aq pnah brniat utk tidak jatuh cinta pd seorg mahkluk Allah yg bernama lelaki slepas ape yg dah terjadi dulu... tp aq hanya insan biasa yg nak disayangi n menyayangi... 1st time aq kenal Firdaus dlm muka buku@facebook... pkul 4 am mase tuh... aq tgah wt keje tetibe dy chat...prkenalan yg sgt simple antara kami... 1st ayt dy anta kt chatbox =tido tido... (^^^).... hahaha... lawak bile ngat balek... =D until now, alhamdulillah kami masih berkawan... dia pernah mlamar aq secara tak proper... wat mase skrg, kami teman tapi mesra.. kami tak anggap kami sbg couple... sbb kami taknak terikat antra satu same laen.. kononnye laa kan.. hewhew... 

aq selalu berdoa agar jika Firdaus jodohku, satukanlah hati kami... n aq berharap agar dia dpt mmbimbing aq ke jannah suatu hari nanti... amin... <3

.....edited picture... hehehe.... 

lagu cinta muka buku ni just nice dgn kisah kami.. huhu

...cinta muka buku...

TO BUILD A HOME

hey there... =) 
xtau lahh kenapa, tp i really love to hear this song... =)
It reminds me of the movie STEP UP REVOLUTION... huhu... =)
click HERE to download this song kay... ^_^

TO BUILD A HOME..HEHE

lyrics :

There is a house built out of stone
Wooden floors, walls and window sills...
Tables and chairs worn by all of the dust...
This is a place where I don't feel alone
This is a place where I feel at home...

And I built a home
For you
For me

Until you disappeared
From me
From you

And now, it's time to leave and turn to dust...

Out in the garden where we planted the seeds
There is a tree as old as me

Branches were sewn by the color of green

Ground had arose and passed it's knees

By the cracks of his skin I climbed to the top
I climbed the tree to see the world
When the gusts came around to blow me down
Held on as tightly as you held onto me
Held on as tightly as you held onto me...

And, I built a home
For you
For me

Until you disappeared
From me
From you

And now, it's time to leave and turn to dust...

today.hari ini

ASSALAMUALAIKUM... =)

lame dah ta jenguk blog ni... mmg dah brhabuk pon.. xtau nak update ape sbenarnye.. hari ni aq x pegy skola.. haha... again n again... perjalanan seorang bekas pelajar SMK ALOR AKAR mcm aq ni rase nyer maken tak ade hala tuju... nape jadi mcm ni pun aq tak tau... lepas result SPM diumumkan... aq ase brsyukur dgn ape yg aq dpt... itu usaha aq... n dats it... itu lahh yg aq dapat...

wlaupun bkn straight A's, result aq tu bole dbggekan jugak laa... tak terOk n tak laa ok sgt2... stiap hari ade je posmen hntar surat utk aq.. kay, tym tu rase teruja yg amat sgt... sbb sbelum ni 2 thun sekali nk dpt surat pun payah.. ahahhaha... mcm2 tawaran n interview aq dpt... alhamdulillah... aq mohon UPU, mtrikulasi n kolej baitulmal... dan sekali lagi aq ase brsyukur sbb semua aq dpt... just UPU aq dpt course bkn minat aq... kputusan dibuat, aq smbung plajaran aq ke Kolej Matrikulasi Pahang yg kat Gambang tu.. aq dpt aliran kemanusiaan... aq amek akaun.. tp aq cpt cgt giv up kt situ... just 2 mggu aq bertahan kt KMPH... aq nekad.. ape nk jd, jd laa... yg pasti aq xnak dok mtrik... 

kenangan... 

tp sekarang aq sedar, aq trsilap pilih laluan hidup aq.. aq masuk form 6... drpd nk sesuaikan diri dgn kwn2 bru smpay laa nk ok ngn cegu amatlah pyh... aq rase terasing... =( aq tau aq silap... silap buat kputusan... skrg mcm2 y aq lalui.. seriously..!! aq ase tak snggup nk teruskan prjalanan hidup aq melalui PRA U ni...

.......realiti......back to school......

*Ya Allah...berikan aq kekuatan utk meneruskan pilihan aq ni... aq byk hampa kan hati ibu aq... dlm sedar, aq mmbiarkan hati itu semakin terluka dgn sikapku... aq berubah secara drastik.. Ya Allah... tabahkan hati ini utk berhadapan dgn segala cabaran yg mendatang... amin.. *